Me, Myself and Royle

It been ages that i didnt update here already..

Anyhow, just want to inform you guys who’ve been following that i have already moved my blog to blogspot.

the address: http://whiteroyle.blogspot.com

Ya.. ya.. i know.. i should have done this earlier instead of inform you guys years after.

Anyway. its my first year anniversary over there.

Please do drop by and leave me a msg ya.

Cheers.

Royle

YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i got a good news here!! Guess what ? My group won the most creative award!! So happy. This is really a very very meaningful experience indeed. In this camp i learn alot of things, learn how to "bergaul" with people. How to heat the situation up and there’s were many people praise me that i am a good leader.. :$. haha!

There’s something that i need to mention here. There’s a opening ceremony in the camp and every group need to perform in that opening ceremony. My group did perform a advertisment. That was a very very very very sucessful show. I did put alot alot of effort on it. There were 11 kids in my group. Every kid got its own personality. I had to teach them how to perfom the advertisment. It was very very tough. I was onli given 2 days to teach them. I tried to shout, ask everyone i know to give confidence to my kids, trying to give the confidence to them myself. Pratise…. I did even lost my voice in that day. But these all things doesnt took any matter, what made me feel touched the most is the time they finished performed on the day. I almost cried that time. All the hard work really paid off. Sawing my kids perfomed that time…. really made me very very very touched.

In my group, there’s a kid very naughty. His name is chun shen. But i didnt hate him nor angry for that. He is a very very cute kid actually. I know all the naughty things he did is to attract me to care him more. He came from a quite poor family. His mother and father need to work. He need to help his mom to work etc… thats why he need more care from other people. Dunno why , i feel that there’s a connection between me and him. The time he call me, asking me question… I know. He just want someone to care him more… i just know..

This is a very very meaningful camp. In the last day, the moment we say goodbye. Everybody cried… included me. I feel sooo sooo sad. We just began to know each other and now we need to say goodbye to each other. Aisk.. i guess that’s life. But no matter how, i wish them the best luck… be good in their family.. be a good boy…. be a good guy in the future.

i will never forget the moment when we are together…

Recently i was invited to be a "tu dao" (group leader) of a camp. Actually that is a camp organised by my cousin. Wow, this is the first time i was invited to be a group leader. A lot of thinking come to my mind then, can i mix in with the people there since i didnt attend any meeting which i should have with them before. I dont know anything about camp. I used to take part in some camp but this time is different, i got to lead people, show up the leadership. Talking about leadership, it soo funny that to said that i need to lead people as i am quite a lost person. But the people i has to lead is only standard 3 to standad 5 kids. Ya, its a small kid "sheng huo ying" yet i still need to lead these kids. But then, i think that i will have a partner with me. Yet so , i have a goal to accomplish here. The group that i lead will be the most succesfull group. I am sure that will be an award for most creative group, most attive group, so and so.. And WATCH OUT! i’m on it !!!! hehe..

We always blaming other ppl for no helping us in anything. I still remember from a show, i learn a thing. Nobody is responsible to help anyone. Nobody is responsible on u. In fact, u uself must take the responesible for urself. Furthurmore, this is ur life. Not others, if u ruined it. It wont affect them, they still what they are. So, Be responesible for urself. Nevertheless, if someone tryin to help u, try to share the responesible with u. Be grateful, Remember they have no responesible on u but they willing to help you out. If the things doesnt go well, dun blame him! He is just tryin to help u. He have no responesible of it. He can just leave u there but he is tryin to lend u his hand….

While this all things come same to ur love. If ur patner try to treat u good, love u, take care of you. Remember that the reason why they treat u so good is becoz they LOVE you!! Look!! Nobody is meant to treat who good. They didnt owe u or what!! They love you! Thats the reason they treat u good, tryin to take care of you. Remember always be grateful of what u have…

When nobody takes the responesible for u. Try to take the responsible for urself. Grow up.. We always grow up little by little when times goes by. I believe everything happened for a reason. A lesson for u to learn. An incident for u to grow up….

ps: i want to pray for a cat that i saw on the road last week. It got hit by a car and there’s a long queue of car there. I still remember i saw every car just pass on his leg just like that!! God, pls help him out there. He is just a Kitten!! I still remember how he is in pain and he is shaken there calling for help. Punish me for not go down the bus to save him but please help him while he is innocent…… I am sorry… really sorry…….

"Over"

I watched the walls around me crumble
But its not like I won’t build them up again
So here’s your last chance for redemption
So take it while it lasts because it will end
And my tears are turning into time I’ve wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye

I cant live without you
Can’t breathe without you I dream about you honestly
Tell me that its over
Because if the world is spinning and I’m still living
It wont be right if were not in it together
Tell me that it’s over

And I’ll be the first to go
Don’t want to be the last to know

I won’t be the one to chase you
But at the same time you’re the heart that I call home
I’m always stuck with these emotions
And the more I try to feel the less I’m whole
My tears are turning into time
I’ve wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye

My tears are turning into time
I’ve wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye

Tell me that it’s over
Over
Honestly tell me
Honestly tell me
Don’t tell me that its over
Don’t tell me that its over..

=i personally think this is a very nice song. it show the real emotion about ppl "confusedness". People always confused abt what to do, they might scared any wrong decission will lead to a bad ending. They dun have any secure feeling on anythings. All they want just the warm of love. Back to the topic. Lindsay Lohan rocks!! this song really sing out my emotion right now…  sigh=

Well.. the most anticipated single of the year is out now!!!!! Deng Deng Deng.. Here is it.. HEAVEN by Ayumi Hamasaki~~ You know what ? i really love this single.. so much so much!!!! It just like the masterpiece of Ayu. I really want to share it with everyone!! Too bad , the person who i really want to share with isnt there with me anymore. Haih…. But its ok, i decide to share it here.. and here’s my review of it—!! Ayu Ready??!!! Lets go inside the world of HEAVEN!!

First of all there are six tracks in this single. which are HEAVEN , Will , Alterna ~Orchestra Version~ , HEAVEN ~piano version~, and the instrusmental version of HEAVEN and Will.

1. HEAVEN - This is the theme song of the movie "Shinobi". Which is create for the love story of two person that destiny cant to be together. How sad is that. :’( Back to the topic. The song is very very very touching…  and also the Pv for this song itself. Its about she waiting for her beloved in the subway. I especially like the part she sobbing in the pv. It nearly made my cry!!! Anyway. this is a very strong ballad of ayu of the year~ Try it!!!! i gave it 20 marks over 10 !!! Try it and u shall never regret!! A strong Ballad! ——20/10

2. Will - A b side song of ayu since the theme of nation. The song itself kinda traditional. Anyway it is create by CREA+D.A.I !!! They always create nice song. A very relax song yet powerful!!! especially love the part hita hita hita hita… bring me to her world with this song…. " the lyrics is somethine like "jsut like the petal on the lake" so relaxing!! ——-17/10

3.alterna~Orchestra Version~ Well , this is a rock song oringinally. Now it is made for Orchestra version. A nice song to listen. Just like the bonus of this single. —–15/10

4.HEAVEN ~piano version~ - Attention Guys!!!!! Alert!!!!! Warning!!! Now really is the important track!!! This is another version of HEAVEN but it is in piano version!!! Ayu voice really stand out in this song!!! I think she really re-corrded this song. Not like other songs like Moments just like edit and paste the vocal to the track. Her voice is soooo powerful here!!!! So clear yet emotional!! Especially like the lalalala part… so sweet. The chorus is soooo damn powerful!!! Really breathtaking man!!!!!! i gave 100 marks over 10 !!!!!!!!!!!!!! Must Listen!!!——100/10

5.HEAVEN ~Intrusmental~ - This instrumental is really worth listen!!! Just listen to the music and u will really fall into this song.. So strong yet emotional…!! i love instrumental!!!! ——-22/10

6.Will ~Intrusmental~ - The instrusmental version of the song Will. Another intrusmental that i really fall into. Just like fallin into the spring and sitting beside the lake that relax !! ——22/10

cd only version    cd+dvd version

the location of the single –> click to download it! enjoy guys!!!!!!

warning: please dont listen when u trying to sleep. It will make u want to listen the single again and again and u will will have insonmia coz of it!!!! Listen with Earphone and make sure no distration!!!

This lately, i am always fillfull with happinese.. Everythings seems to be soo nice.. First of all, ayu’s new song is really very very very very touching and damn damn nice to listen!! =HEAVAN and WILL=. She really wont disapoint me with her new songs lor. Her ballad is more touching and touching after u listen it many times~ Besides that, i am trying to know some new frens out there. Although i know them want to know me is having some purpose on me, but i will try to protect myself.. Actually, dun talk abt the way of talk, actually they got really quite nice goin personality and character de..

Actually i got goals now de lor, try to score a1 in maths and sains in my comming spm is my prioty! As i got my new home teacher liao, i think the goal isnt far away from me de!!! Haha, sometimes talking shit with my "darling" frankie really made up my day. He really is my "happy fruit"! Thankx ar Frankie Foo!! Haha!! And exercise everyday to get a fit body too!! You know what ? I just want to SCREAMMMM now telling the whole world that i sure can do it de….! hahahhahahaha…

L.O.V.E is a feelings that a couple sharing when they are together.. In a relationship there’s nth about who is rugi or who menang.. quote from Zhang Dong Liang’s latest Song.. However, this feelings could never last long i believe. There is no such things as everlasting love in this world. Some ppl said things that u’ll never get is something most beautiful in the world. I totally agree that.. Just when u love someone very much, try to treat him even better to urself. The person will never appreciate. Well, its not abt they dun appreciate. Is they will start to feel nth abt it and treat it like that is something u must to do.. Somehow i heard ppl said, don ever treat the ppl u care too good.. don ever show ur feelings to him/her. Coz if he/she know u care him that much, he/she will never appreciate u.

However, i will never learn this, how can someone ever can control his feelings and keep it inside? Well, so what happened to me is padan muka myself. I can blame no one but myself.. But i guess i would never learn this lesson. I will never keep my feelings. i think thats me.. I will just treat my partner good again and again until my heart didnt feel pain anymore… then i will stop loving anyone anymore…

Just no matter what happened, dun ever try to hurt urself. You, yourself is the one will stay with u all the time, he will never try to betray u. He is the one will be with u until ur life end.. It’s stupid to hurt urself..

The summer has come again and again since then
But why am I looking back upon the past again
Tracing the footprints?

I remember everything even now
Your voice calling my name, your casual habits
I want to forget, and I don’t want to forget

Why the person u love would never look back at you, and the person u dont love keep bothering you…??  Another song from ayu, HEAVEN. Its another hit song since Moments, try it. I belive it can touch the deep inside ur heart as it really did to me..

Aih~~ So fast a week is like that then pass liao.. I still havent enjoy enugf ar!!! Just send back my cousins and everything become the old days again.. My mom, my 3 sis and ricky. The same place everyday, the televisyen is on downstair and i am siting upstair in front on the computer dunno what to do.. When can i get pass all this boring life ar~ Boring routin…

Today just go fetch back my sis in leisure mall there.. ( the place that my nightmare always happened in) just trying to find a nice carpark. This time i am smart liao. didnt got for the parking lot that besides got tiang punya~~ But who knows.. leisure mall was defintely an unlucky place for me.. I hit on another car again!!!! Damn stupid i am.. Who ask me to "lan lek"!! got a place that can just str8 away go in but i chose to "gostan" in.. then BANG!!!! Haih.. When am i gonna to learn and improve?? Mayb next time when u open the newspaper which say " 1 young men "lan lek" die in accident while trying to PARK HIS CAR!!!!!" that would be me… sad…

Anyway, today still can get my ayumi "FAIRYLAND" single to cover back this unlucky day for me.. mayb just for little..

i wonder is he having the same situation with me???

If when last time u ask me where is my paradise, i will 110% answer u that is in my patner’s hug. but if u ask me the same question now. the answer for me is in my family’s hug..

This holiday i was manage to set up some time to go for my niece full month party in ipoh.. I got alot of fun in it. I was never been so happy for so long liao. In there we all gathering together, trying to have some good time together.. We takes pictures together, eating together, but i think why i feel this is my paradise is because i am away from kl., away from all the things and ppl that i need to face in kl.. In ipoh , i can do whatever things that i want , play whenever i want, just dunno why .. in there i can feel free , without thinking of my problems. i can have fun without any "fan nao".

But after all, i relise that there is not my place that i belong. My place is belong in kl. i just need to come back and face it. Back to this city with many "fan nao".. well the problem is all my problems anyway. i started to miss the day i was in ipoh.. I still remember my uncle told me that " Next time come here and stay long long ya". Hmmph. i just wish this year end faster faster come as i can go back to the paradise as soon as possible..

The power of mahjung ~~